LONG DUE POST

It's been over a month since I last blogged. I wouldn't even attempt to make any excuses why I cannot do so since I'm just at home, bumming around and surfing the net and tweeting like there's no tomorrow. In fact, I really was planning to blog a long time ago, with a certain topic in mind but due to again, this never-ending laziness of mine, I failed to do so.

But lol alas, I've finally found something worth-blogging and I couldn't just let this pass! Well since everyone's making a fuss over it (WHO THE HELL WOULD NOT?) because it really feels surreal. The thing is I, and the whole class I belong in during college passed the September 2013 Licensure Examination for Teachers. *stops for a moment to digest that*

Since the day of the exam, I've been very negative about what the results would be, thinking what a shame it would be it would be once the results are out; my name wouldn't be in it. T____T I've never been the type of person who's confident enough to say, "I aced that exam" or "I am positive I'll pass" ever since I started school, having experienced a lot of failing moments especially in entrance examinations. Over the years, I've learned it's better to expect the worst and just be mildly hurt than expect the best and be deeply wounded.

Having planned to eat out the day before, we went to Makati Ave. to buy and take-out food from one of the restaurants we frequent there...without having any idea that the results are coming out that night, too!

Arriving at home, we ate in peace (because omg the food's that good. everytime we do this, we can't help but eat a lot!) afterwhich, I've decided to go online. The first thing I saw though, when I opened Facebook was a screenshot by a schoolmate/friend with her name on it and the caption says, "Thank you, Lord! I passed the exam! To God the the glory!" by the time I finished looking at it, my mouth's really wide open and my heart's about to burst from fear and nervousness. There's also a sudden wave of headache which is very unsual;; maybe brought about by what I was feeling during that time.

I quickly typed PRC's URL in the address bar with shaking hands and with the thought of "This is it" in mind. But my fate decided to tease me for the website is taking years to load and in the end, I did not get to see the list there. Luckily though, a classmate of mine was able to access the list and download it (since it's in PDF format) and finally upload it in our private group on Facebook. I was relieved because finally, I won't struggle too much just to open the damned file but at the same time, the nerve-wracking feeling is still there. Having my mother pull a chair and sit just behind me, we started scrolling down to letter "M" since my surname starts there. We are barely breathing, I swear. And so we scrolled downwards more and more until we are at the list of passers whose surnames are also "MORALES". I panicked because I did not see my name at first and thankfully I scrolled down a little more and alas, my name's there. I heaved a sigh of relief and thank Heavens and was utterly happy that time.

My mother was frantic, rushing to the room where my father is currently at that time and delivered the great news. I just don't know how to react at my mother's expression during that time, she's almost squealing and is very happy. My father, on the other hand, being the silent and not-so-sweet type, just gave me a thumbs-up which is more than enough.

Oh what stroke of luck! Just when I was about to finish this blog, a mailman just delivered a letter for me from PRC which contains details about our oath-taking. This makes everything official. I really am a licensed teacher.


Thank you, Lord.
Thank you, to my family although I've never really said it because I think it's tooooo cheesy.
To my friends and to my fandom which really inspired me.

This is just the start....I am to face lots of challenges way more difficult than this in the future. But in God's will and grace, I know, I'll surpass those and make it through~

jobless, penny-less and food.

I've been jobless for two weeks now.

I haven't done anything to find a new one.

I am so poor right  now. I need money.

And then there's my hunger. It just won't leave me.

My jeans, shorts...everything's gotten smaller. Everytime I wear them, my waist feels like it's going to burst from the tightness.


:(


And oh, my iPhone's broken for...also going on 2 weeks now :(

Have you ever found yourself blurting out words or phrases involuntarily? I might find that really odd and weird and something I wouldn't find myself doing ever.
 But ever since I have started taking in calls from my now previous job, up until now, I've been doing it.
 At work, before, we receive at least 30 calls a day and in every call, we are supposed to say the same things.
 Well yeah, it's very much scripted which is also why people there kept on saying we can take those calls with our eyes closed and our mind drifting somewhere.

 That could be fun except that it could also make people stupid...which I believe happened to me. T__T

Sharing an old photo of my late hamster and I where it looked as if she's giving me a kiss on the cheek when in reality she wants nothing but to be freed from my grasp and walk and play around.

I'll always miss you, my one and only echoserang hamster! :3

err

I am jobless, money-less and insanely hungry all the time


....but I am happy.

Finally getting rid of the freaking job I hated felt like something was lifted off of my shoulders but of course it somewhat worries me that I didn't pursue for a proper and peaceful closure with the company... I just hope it won't bother or affect me in any way in the future. UGH~


Let's just focus on sleeping, eating and searching for a (easy) job for now. We can do this!

not creative at giving titles :D

Back in college,  I remember how excited I was to graduate and get over all the stress of being a student and earn money on my own to buy whatever I want. But some four months after graduation which is about right now, I am certain I want to take those words back.
Hunting for a fresh graduate's first job is never easy, or at least for me  whose mind is forever on a confused state. I, up to now, still don't know if I  am going to pursue a career that is related to my course or something that is different and easy. I'd really want to give teaching a shot because of all the bills and  laws being passed that are beneficial to teachers and the incentives they can get. $_$ But before I even get to that, let's not forget the up and coming Board Examinations for Teachers (LET) which is happening in.....12 days from now and what's alarming is I haven't made any proper prepatations yet. Hence, I could not call myself ready for the exams yet. And I could only imagine myself getting embarassed the moment the results come out and my name isn't there.

On the other hand, when I started joining my friend, Glenda in applying mainly in call center offices for a job, I easily get jitters especially when we're already being interviewed. We went to approximately 4 call centers around the metro to apply and we had a variety of experiences in each. But the last one we both had, is  the center I  really dreamt of being accepted although I guess it'll be better if I won't mention the company's name. It was a real surprise and shock when I got hired in this  company after a  couple of hours of merely walking into the entrance of their office somewhere in Makati. It was quick and before I knew it, I was already there, sitting in front of a round table, an HR personnel discussing the contents of the  probationary contract they're offering and waiting for me to sign.  The fact that I passed all the exams I went through and was being offered to be part of the company already had me speechless, so without putting much thought into it,  I signed lots of paperworks and was informed that the training / "work" will start in ... 2 days. Such short notice!

I  seriously think the company is overrated though, the salary they offer is not high but the quality they're looking for and demand from their employees could be a standard for a CEO's!...now I'm exaggerating a bit.
Perhaps it's true that this company has to be one of the "best"...bah in terms of call centers in the country, but after my more than three months of stay, the fact that the statement "I've hadenough" came out of my mouth is to attest that they title given to them was too much and a little undeserved.
Fucked up schedule is already a given. Rude customers, is another. Your Team Leader/s are also one thing. The friends you make in your officemates are worth remembering. The schedule that caused you pimples is unacceptable. And of course, the salary is to cry for.
Apart from taking in calls and deal with more or less 30 people of different attitudes per day, it's also our duty to keep our metrics on an  average scale or even higher. I won't go into details on that but seriously, all the stereotypes about call centers being an easy job, after being in this company for 3 months, went down the drain.

And the embarassment I had to go through during the medical as if we're severely ill people. Let's just put it this way. I was thoroughly checked...even down there! Seriously. Get real! Your standards are way too high, it won't hurt to lower them a little and level them with the salary you offer. (PLEASE)
And so after weighing things and nights, nights & more nights of me dragging myself to work  (telling myself I don't wanna go to work anymore) and every interruption and rude actions towards me and us, I decided to let go. Call me "choosy" "maarte" and all those, I don't fcking care. I just made a decision which I hope would do me good.

Which leads me back to the statement I mentioned in college. Now if I could rephrase that, I'd say, if only I could be a student forever, whose life was carefree, happy, pimple-free! (LOL)
PS: I haven't even submitted my resignation yet, my father told me not to go on AWOL but in this company I'm in, after submitting your aapplication for resignation, you'll need to render 30 freakin days of work before they let you go. Seriously?!

Pardon my un-understandable writing and rant. It's been a long while since I last posted and wrote.